i often feel, well to be honest- like jumping into the hudson... instead, i go to my favorite places and think about my favorite people, and then i re-read words that moved me, re-watch/listen film clips that make me feel so much less alien and just a little more me. every time, like it is the first time. i need quotes, they're like verbal stills, stills that have captured all that is necessary to help me go on. to inspire me to be alright with still not being quite 'human'. that's so fucking overrated. -N
